The last two weeks have been challenging to say the least.  I have shared with some friends the things I have been through, such as the dishwasher getting clogged, washing machine leaking all over the floor, the air conditioning going out in the house, AC condenser going out on my vehicle, having to buy a new toilet, kids have all been sick… I seemed to be sick all the time, had one kiddo in the emergency room who sent us on to a larger hospital for possible surgery, and major life changing decisions had to be made that honestly were scary to make.

During this time, I have felt so sorry for myself… It was a lot to deal with.  I was sick three times and on three different antibiotics.  I was exhausted, and I fell out of my routine.  I gave up that quiet time with the Lord in the mornings so I could get extra sleep and stopped my personal Bible reading and learning.  I would still pray throughout the day, but it just seemed off, and made me feel off.

I get so frustrated with myself that when times get tough, I try to handle everything on my own ‘till I was literally at the point of exhaustion.  Looking back…why?  I slap my forehead with my hand.  I have been writing for this blog since January 2023 trying to encourage people to lean on the Lord, don’t fight your battles alone and I fall into the enemy’s trap.

I have the following verse posted around the house as a reminder for myself and everyone in our home.

1 Thessaloanians 5:28: Be joyful always; pray continually;

give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

The enemy literally took the Bible verse I had hanging in my house and tried to cheat me out of my blessings because I was too focused on what was going wrong to remember to be joyful always, pray continually and give thanks to God in all circumstances. 

Looking back, I can see how the AC repair man

was able to fix the AC the next day

 and it was covered under warranty.

I was able to fix the dishwasher myself

and only charged myself with a pat on the back.

The washing machine was repaired

with a tiny bit of some sort of magical sealant/adhesive

 that he had and was only charged for the initial diagnostic fee.

I had the money in the bank to cover the part for the car.

My husband was able to fix the plumbing/toilet

 problem without having to pay a plumber to come in.

The hospital my doctor

 is affiliated with has a 24/7 telehealth option

 that I didn’t even have to leave the house.

  The medications were called in to my pharmacy

 who delivered them to my house….for free!

As frustrated as I was to drive to a larger hospital

 in the middle of the night, my child did not need surgery,

that was a totally answered prayer.

And those major life decisions wouldn’t

 have happened fifty years ago because

there would not have been any options.

I am so thankful that Jesus still loves me, in spite of all the times I stumble (which are a lot, physically and spiritually).   I picked myself up out of my waller’n in self-pity, and dropped to my knees asking for forgiveness and thanked him for carrying me through and taking care of everything.

Now I need to put up more copies of that verse around the house because apparently two are not enough to keep me straight.